Beautiful abandoned place

I'm like a beautiful abandoned place

ready to be looked at

but never to be inhabited

Knot

in my throat

a knot,

you're not

she's not

they're not

online

I am

I know

I am

alone

Quiero

 ... hacerme bolita

una esfera

cada vez más pequeña

y rodar

            rodar   

                        rodar

hasta salir

al espacio

explotar

super nova

y convertirme

en hoyo negro

That fragile...

 ... thread

that sustains

my life

I've always known

it to be

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       r

            a

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                    i

                        l

                            e

Nothing

... a void

there's nothing

to a void

Se siente...

 Como si el mundo 

estuviera a años luz

Como si la vida

me dejara atrás

Como si perturbara

el aire al respirar

It's as if...

 ... I just spit my heart out

and he says nothing

N   

 O  

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        I   

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I'm so, so hungry 

for deep communication

that never happens

did it ever happen?

hardly ever

or never

happened,

why should I 

think, believe

it's ever going

to happen?

He does nothing

but run away

from real love

run away

from himself

run away

from what's true...

he'll never know